Yesterday I was sitting in the "pick up" line at my sons school. I'm one of those that gets there about 30 - 45 minutes early so that I'm one of the first ones in line. This gives me time to read, balance my checkbook, knit a blanket, etc. I've been in a bit of a twirling storm the past few weeks. The enemy has thrown so many "below the waist" punches at me. You know what I'm talking about, those low, "I know he did not just go there" punches. This, of course, all started after I taught on The Heart of a Warrior. He is certainly angry about the Word that went forth and the lives that were changed from it. We know that the Word will do what it sets out to do. So he lost there and thought he would direct his attack to me. I've been battling. A lot of days I win. Some times I get knocked down but praise the Lord for the His strength that enables me to get back up.
I was able to pick up my son from school because I am recovering from a medical procedure that is part of his latest "attempt" on my life. I was feeling a little weak and knew that I needed some Word for encouragement and strength. After all, I'm getting ready to deliver the warrior teaching to our youth group next week. I certainly don't expect him to go down without a fight. So I opened my bible to Psalm 37. The words became like a cool drink of water to me. They were soothing to my soul.
3 Trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) in the Lord and do good; so shall you dwell in the land and feed surely on His faithfulness, and truly you shall be fed.
4 Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) also in Him and He will bring it to pass.
6 And He will make your uprightness and right standing with God go forth as the light, and your justice and right as [the shining sun of] the noonday.
7 Be still and rest in the Lord; wait for Him and patiently lean yourself upon Him; fret not yourself because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked devices to pass.
I was so drawn to these verses. The Lord began to speak to me so deeply. I loved, loved, loved the part in verse 3 that says, "and feed surely on His faithfulness". That very moment I imagined myself feasting at the table of the Lord and getting so full. You know what I'm talking about. It's like sitting down at Grandma's Sunday lunch table. You get so full you have to unbutton your pants...but you hate to stop eating because it's so good and you won't get to eat that way again for another week or so. I love how His table never runs out. I can just stay right there and rest in Him and continue to feast. There's always a place for me at His table. The sweet aroma of His goodness continues to draw me there. Yesterday, in that car line...He drew me in with the sweetness of His love and promises.
He continued to speak to me about rolling my cares/load over on Him. That was huge for me considering the challenges I have faced and continue to eyeball. At one point He said, "Just lean on me honey." The word trust continued to jump off the page at me. As I type this, it is ministering to me. He just wants us to trust Him. Why do we keep forgetting or refusing to do that. He is utterly trustworthy. Why in the world would I doubt Him? Why do you doubt Him? As we wait on Him patiently. He will certainly move on our behalf. He will move heaven and earth on our behalf. Verse 4 reassures us that we can be delighted in Him because He knows our secret petitions and the desires of our hearts. Even those things we've not uttered to anyone...not even our momma. He knows them. When we wait on Him, delight ourselves in Him, put our trust in Him, and commit ourselves to Him...we find that our desires line up with His and He begins to meet those desires...one by one.
He was speaking to me greatly yesterday through these passages. He was speaking encouragement for what had already happened and strength/delight in what was about to happen. He spoke to me...and then He moved. Within hours of Him speaking through these verses, He began opening doors to the desires of my heart (one of those great big desires that you're not sure will ever really happen). It just came out of the blue. It's a bit overwhelming. Unexpected. It is something we must approach with faith and wisdom....and absolute humility. But I know that I can lean on Him, trust Him to work it all out because my Daddy took the time to speak to me before He moved. Just another testament to His faithfulness.